Prayer

My bible study group that I have been meeting with for the last 4 years just started a new study called Let Prayer Change Your Life. Up until recently, and I mean very recently, I’m slowly starting to open up and become more comfortable in acknowledging where I am at…. I’m usually the very quiet one only speaking vary rarely, and mostly listening and taking everything in and learning that way. I haven’t been very intentional as far as opening up the bible and studying it at all. Mostly because I am so intimidated by the whole concept. Don’t get me wrong, I believe in God, I have a relationship with him, but I never seeked to study him. 4 years ago a few sweet friends invited me to join an amazing group of women and I have learned SO much from each of them, different things in different ways, and over the years, I have felt my inner being changing in a way I can’t explain, but until recently fully understanding why the last 4 years (of what I’ll call character building) were so important… Chris and I were talking the other night after a couples study we are participating in called the Truth Project. After the 1st night, we were discussing it, and I asked, “is it possible to have eternal life by just having a relationship with god, but not seeking to know him?” After asking that question out loud, but mostly to myself, I decided that it is important to be more intentional. So back to this current study…could the timing be more perfect in my life for a study such as prayer? Within the first 3 weeks, I’ve decided that I’m not very good at prayer…yes I pray, but not consistently, yes, I have a relationship with God, but that sometimes its just one sided..I talk to him throughout the day, but I’m not listening to what he has to say back to me…SO, after Monday night, I decided it is time to start doing something about my relationship and being more intentional in it, and being comfortable asking God for what it is I need. So Tuesday started different for me, and I can honestly say, I have never taken this step..I got up earlier than usual, only 15 minutes to be exact, to start reading and praying….praying for my life, my direction, and what I’m supposed to do with where I am at….It’s only 15 minutes, but it’s a start…I will leave you with a verse that was given to us as part of this study that fits perfectly to my life stage and circumstances.

James 4:2
You do not have because you do not ask.